Not so long ago, I watched – astounded – as Iraqi
civilians tore down a statue of their fallen dictator and indescribable
emotions flooded my heart. Days before, I had sat – riveted
– watching any news my remote could find and my radio dial
had not strayed from NPR for more than brief local news and traffic
reports.
Iraq.
Afghanistan.
North Korea.
China.
The economy…
The list of external stressors seems endless and sometimes I wish
I could just shut out the world. But my life is touched –
personally – by too much of this chaos to ignore it for
long.
Two years ago I would have found solace in a plate of nachos or
a late-night bowl of ice cream. Today, I am astonished to find
myself “dealing” in new ways.
I remember one of the first times I turned to food for comfort.
I was at an awkward age and was experiencing the loneliness common
to those turbulent, early-teen years. Whatever the cause, I was
feeling particularly dejected and alone. Seeking solitude during
the lunch hour, I avoided the cafeteria and spent my designated
lunch money on potato chips and soda. This became a habit I would
not soon break.
It’s not uncommon; most of us have turned to food for comfort
at one time or another. For many of us, it was this “stress-eating”
that led to our current state of overweight. In moments of crisis
or malcontent – when others would normally lose their appetite
– we found our “security blanket” by indulging
in favorite foods.
An inability to cope with the pressures of life and the ongoing,
ever-changing sources of our stress, we found pizza and doughnuts
to be far less expensive than professional therapy… and
certainly more fun.
A job change, the death of a friend, a divorce – even joyous
occasions like getting married, the birth of a child, or buying
a house – all were cause to binge. The impetus was irrelevant;
the reaction was the same.
Until now.
Eating low carb has taught me an inherent truth:
We can always control our eating – even if we control nothing
else.
Indeed, by maintaining this control, we gain some semblance of
peace in a chaotic world.
I cannot control what goes on in the world; my influence has tangible
limits.
Even those life changes that cause me to rejoice can wreak havoc
on my nerves. But I will no longer use this “happy stress”
as an excuse to eat.
And I refuse to let the misery of this world dictate my own happiness.
That’s basically what it boils down to: a choice.
Perhaps you’ll think me a Pollyanna, but this choice is
imperative. My health – my life – literally depends
upon it. If I continue to turn to food to soothe my spirit, I
will find myself immobilized on my weight-loss journey and I have
come too far to turn back now.
The great thing about low carb is that eating this way makes this
decision “doable.” When I stay true to my low-carb
woe (way of eating), my hunger is much diminished and my cravings
virtually disappear. Even the mental temptation to eat foods I
shouldn’t seems to fade as I consider the physical consequences
of eating outside my woe. Without a doubt, staying low-carb helps
me to stay low-carb!
So, does this mean that I am never tempted to turn to sweets or
pasta in moments of emotional crisis? Of course not. That, unfortunately,
is part of who I am. But I am learning new ways of dealing with
life’s curve balls – non-food rewards, regular exercise,
relaxation techniques, exploring my faith – and these are
definitely helping. I know full well that my battle is not over.
Those old ghosts are waiting to haunt me when I am at my weakest.
There is the store that always stocks the best ice cream sandwiches.
Here is the restaurant with my favorite onion rings.
Standing in line at the grocery checkout, I avert my eyes from
the magnetic pull of the various chocolates – old friends
who once consoled my weary heart.
But I am proud to say that the once daily battle has become increasingly
sporadic.
And I do have new low-carb-legal foods at my disposal for momentary
lapses in my fortitude.
As I rediscover lost health and well being while eating low carb,
I find I am more at peace with myself – and subsequently
– more at peace with the world.